Life A River

In a life like a River
Flowing forward always and ever
Without hope of anything other
Than what has always been, no changes, ever
Just the unstoppable flow of the River.



Always there was unspoken and dreamed
A place unlike all past known and seen
A vision of living in a world happy it seemed
A world unreal that only could be dreamed.

Others lived in such a place, but it's a place some can only watch
It was not a dream he ever would be allowed to catch
Longed for vision, that green grass and blue sky patch
But it was behind locks that the world kept latched
Longed for, Dreamed of, but only to be watched.

In a world of toil bound to an anchor
The River eroded the world while he could only labor
Marshes and meadows and even a harbor
Surrounded this world, just out of reach, he restrained by a burdensome chain
Never to reach and in that land reign.



Winter wind cuts the mind like ice
To the very core with slice after brutal slice
Every step toward any goal is paid a heavy price
No payment or merit would ever suffice
Bound only to be met with hearts of ice.

Drained by life, seeming to die to the very soul
A person with no chance to every feel whole
Locked in a prison without any parole
Lack of hope took a slow but steady toll
Sapping the final strengths from the soul.

In deep night he would quietly howl
Low in the being grew a silent growl
Addressing life with almost a constant scowl
Feeling life presented only that which was foul
And thoughts could only echo in his head in a painful howl.

Nights were haunted by a pair of eyes
Seen since youth, but knowing this was a dream of lies
Thoughts conveyed by those visions were but a guise
Of something that had no chance to arise
And still haunted by the image of those glittering eyes.

A friend was found, innocent and sweet
A person with whom to talk, laugh, and greet
Idle words enjoyed, friendly, open and all discreet
But behind it they knew, there was more, and he feared to meet
Though they were only friends, innocent and sweet.

Through trepidation, finally agreeing, they met
Instantly the die was cast and their fate was set
Even though nothing had happened, they were already wet
There was never a doubt, this was not an idle threat
That union was a given, those eyes were known long before they met.

Set in ways and not one to gamble
But life was a mess, like a wild bramble
All direction long ago lost, no goals, just a shamble
And quickly chose, it was time to set all aside for this gamble.

She was an object of very fantasy
Come to life as a stark reality
It did not take long to know this was destiny
It presented problems and not just of triviality
But it was also real and not fantasy.

She was his long looked for fate
An unexpected and unlooked for finding of his soul mate
Together a new life they agree to create
And it was not lightly they chose and not without debate
But jointly they chose to accept their fate.

To her, he pledged his very life
To soul, and to her, he declared her his wife
Cast away all other things like a flick of a knife
Knowing but ready to accept the oncoming strife
This was not with thoughts idle, it was for all of his life.

Then the story went wrong
And crushed the song.

Duty and vows to another
Fears and worries that smother.

The world stepped in and tore them apart
When their new life had not even had a chance to start.

And he is alone in the very abyss
Worse than his worst nightmares all is amiss.

He can only hang on and hope to cope
At a loss, without faith, friendship, or hope.